There's Health and then There's Health

Food, diet, exercise...what are three things that are farthest from my mind right now? Well food is hardly ever farthest from my mind, but it is a lot farther away than is typical for me. I am not at home. I am not sheltered by the safety of my familiar stress filled life.

I am two states away at the home of my older sister. She is facing new and scary medical challenges and doing so with honest bravery. I am happily being the faithful sidekick. I suppose I should think about eating healthy and participating in healthy activity (aka exercise) but I am on a different plane from the plane of day to day living. I have been here before so it seems familiar. Not much of what is generally so very important to me has any importance at all. I was on this plane through the cancer journey of Bob's mom. My being kicks into this mode that just makes decisions without hesitation. My priority gives me purpose and, although my own nuclear family is never far in my heart and mind, nothing but being who and what I need to be, doing what I need to do to be a part of the healing process for Teresa, has any significance. 

I will try to remember to care for myself while I am here. Helping her get well will be worth nothing if I cause harm to myself because that in turn would cause her harm. I am not reckless. I am not sad or depressed and not caring about myself. I have been there and know that. I am taking a break of another kind where reason means little and instinct calls the shots. It is, I believe, the way I am wired. I could not be any other way.