Event Food Averted

Yesterday was Senior Celebration at work. This event requires me to speak in public, which I do, but with much anxiety. It also involves food and the social pressure to eat. I have the advantage of having lost weight before. Back then it was harder to get people to understand that when I said "No thanks" to an offer of food I really meant it. I counted and I had to say "No" in one form or another at least six times before co-workers stopped asking. This go around I just told them I am back to caring about myself and I am choosing my food carefully. I told them about my goal to loose the weight and go to New York. I did the social part of social eating, but not the eating part and eventually the conversation moved on to something other than my eating habits.

I also was, or I should say am, grieving. I don't want to publicly go into a whole lot of detail, but in a way I lost a baby who had not yet been born. She was a girl and I let myself dream about being her mom and bringing her into my family. It wasn't meant to be and I don't see the big picture of why it all happened in the first place, and I know I probably never will. It is a tragic story that is not really mine to tell. I am only mentioning it because it is the kind of thing that makes me want to eat, but I didn't. I stuck to my guns and only ate food on my food plan. I lost 2.5 lbs since my last post, so I am 261 in my 'jamas this morning.

My husband was awarded some baseball tickets for tonight. The head of the company handed them over personally and thanked him for his hard work. This is a big company with over 500 employees, so it is very cool. My problem is dinner and the potential to snack after dinner. I found snacking after dinner is a big downfall for me. I have to not do it if I am going to loose any weight. Dinner itself is kind of an issue because there is not much time to eat a good meal before the game and most things that are quick are unhealthy. Eating at the game is out of the question. I don't want to have to try and find something that fits my food plan and I don't want to pay the money it would cost to eat it. I have a couple of ideas for dinner, but so far no great idea. I'll let you know what I come up with.